Saturday, August 31, 2013
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Blessed
Blessed with a fabulous husband who works hard to be a great provider for us. Who is a wonderful father to our two sweet babies.
Blessed with family close by. Family that process me with entertainment. Family that helps me out.
Blessed by Gods grace. I'm a work in progress. I'm so thankful that his word tells me that even tho I'm imperfect he still loves me.
Blessed to have a beautiful home. It's never clean but thats because I'm also blessed by two beautiful kiddos and loads of extras that mess it up!
Blessed to have an abundance of material things that don't matter such as clothes, food, tv, beds, etc
Blessed to have gone to college for Occupational Therapy. My back ground comes in handy daily with my kiddos. Especially my son who has autism and sensory processing disorder.
Blessed to have a variety of materials and resources at my hands to help us go e Graham and Bella great lives.
Blessed that my husband works so I can stay home with kids.
Blessed I get to help keep my niece and nephew daily.
Blessed with family close by. Family that process me with entertainment. Family that helps me out.
Blessed by Gods grace. I'm a work in progress. I'm so thankful that his word tells me that even tho I'm imperfect he still loves me.
Blessed to have a beautiful home. It's never clean but thats because I'm also blessed by two beautiful kiddos and loads of extras that mess it up!
Blessed to have an abundance of material things that don't matter such as clothes, food, tv, beds, etc
Blessed to have gone to college for Occupational Therapy. My back ground comes in handy daily with my kiddos. Especially my son who has autism and sensory processing disorder.
Blessed to have a variety of materials and resources at my hands to help us go e Graham and Bella great lives.
Blessed that my husband works so I can stay home with kids.
Blessed I get to help keep my niece and nephew daily.
Friday, March 1, 2013
Rant of the day
First day of no caffeine and I'm already in a poor mood!
So let me get this straight... We are supposed to walk our preschoolers in every morning? But not park in front of the school? (Theres like 3 spots now) We should then try to find a parking space around the block that doesn't have a snow pile as tall as my kid in it or isn't slick as snot and walk in on sidewalks that usually have ice on them? Or how about when it's raining/storming? I don't feel comfortable dropping my baby at the door (nor am I supposed to according to the handbook) so I have an idea Mrs. Throneburg- give up your prime parking spot so we can get our kids in safely and on time without having to fall on our butts or tromp through puddles! Or how about you walk the perimeter of the school each morning to ensure its safe in ALL areas surrounding the school. (I counted 5 students falling on the ice one day directly in front of the school while I waited patiently in the car line.) That is what you're worried about right? Safety of our kids? I mean your solution is good in theory and I do agree people are idiots when they go out around cars dropping off students but you haven't thoroughly thought this one through.
Whew. I'm done now. Not entirely sure why this sent me for a loop this morning... Does someone want to call my dr and tell him how badly I need caffeine?!
So let me get this straight... We are supposed to walk our preschoolers in every morning? But not park in front of the school? (Theres like 3 spots now) We should then try to find a parking space around the block that doesn't have a snow pile as tall as my kid in it or isn't slick as snot and walk in on sidewalks that usually have ice on them? Or how about when it's raining/storming? I don't feel comfortable dropping my baby at the door (nor am I supposed to according to the handbook) so I have an idea Mrs. Throneburg- give up your prime parking spot so we can get our kids in safely and on time without having to fall on our butts or tromp through puddles! Or how about you walk the perimeter of the school each morning to ensure its safe in ALL areas surrounding the school. (I counted 5 students falling on the ice one day directly in front of the school while I waited patiently in the car line.) That is what you're worried about right? Safety of our kids? I mean your solution is good in theory and I do agree people are idiots when they go out around cars dropping off students but you haven't thoroughly thought this one through.
Whew. I'm done now. Not entirely sure why this sent me for a loop this morning... Does someone want to call my dr and tell him how badly I need caffeine?!
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Small town
Tonight we attended a visitation for a family friend who passed away from a heart attack at the early age of 52. His visitation was like none other Ive ever seen. It was scheduled to be 4 hrs long from 4-8 and we left at 9:30 with around an hrs worth of line still behind us. Now granted there was a lot of family and church goers but still I bet there was well around 1000 people who showed up on this cold rainy night to give their condolences to the family and say their goodbyes to Joe. Which brings me to my point. There were a few outsiders. Who obviously aren't from small towns. At least not ones like El Paso IL. One girl in particular looked a little overwhelmed with the "so and so and I grew up together because our moms used to work together before we born and now his mom works for my father in law and him and my husband were born on the same day" conversations. And that was only the 30 seconds I talked to one of the sons. :)
Another girl who is married into the family works with my sister in law and greets me with a "oh so YOU'RE Graham's mom" haha got to love small towns!
At Graham's Christmas concert- his cheering section for his 10 minute concert included his Dad and Bella and I, his grandma blue, his aunt Tiffany, uncle T dawg, cousins Wylie, Lana and Dax, Pa paw mark, Aunt Mary Beth, his great grandma Roberts, his great aunt Debbie, his great uncle John and great aunt Mindy and cousins Nick and Camilla. That's just who came to see JUST G.
That does not include 4 of my cousins who also have children/nieces in the same pre-k, two aunts of mine, and multiple distant cousins,etc. it's like a family reunion everywhere we go.
Anyway, I am praising God tonight to be from this incredibly small town where everybody knows you in some way shape or form! What an amazing testimony to Joe's life that so many showed up tonight. And how lucky are my children to have so many close by to support their every doing?
Tonight in thankful to live in a small town.
Another girl who is married into the family works with my sister in law and greets me with a "oh so YOU'RE Graham's mom" haha got to love small towns!
At Graham's Christmas concert- his cheering section for his 10 minute concert included his Dad and Bella and I, his grandma blue, his aunt Tiffany, uncle T dawg, cousins Wylie, Lana and Dax, Pa paw mark, Aunt Mary Beth, his great grandma Roberts, his great aunt Debbie, his great uncle John and great aunt Mindy and cousins Nick and Camilla. That's just who came to see JUST G.
That does not include 4 of my cousins who also have children/nieces in the same pre-k, two aunts of mine, and multiple distant cousins,etc. it's like a family reunion everywhere we go.
Anyway, I am praising God tonight to be from this incredibly small town where everybody knows you in some way shape or form! What an amazing testimony to Joe's life that so many showed up tonight. And how lucky are my children to have so many close by to support their every doing?
Tonight in thankful to live in a small town.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Take a deep breath and regroup.
Today was G's first OT appointment. I'm an OTA. So this bugs me extra. Shouldn't all of this have been done already? Don't I know what needs implemented and how to do it? And every single time I started to think about all we NEED to get started for him to be better off, I started breathing faster and my chest for tight and I started to freak out. And I know I should schedule some family counseling for us and maybe get back on some anxiety meds and yet I'm so focused on him I haven't yet made the calls.
When I'm home and they're busy I'm sitting, mind racing so I get on Facebook and get sucked into others lives. What does so and so have going on thats worse than what I'm dealing with here? And then I see people asking questions I don't care to answer but I'm not trying to hide. Just steering away front that unwanted advice or judgement that I feel I'm getting when I read between the lines. People that just give off that feeling that they're not there for support, just to be nosy and tell you how they feel you should be handling things or that what you're doing is wrong. I just can't handle it right now in my life. I need to take a breather. Relax and focus on family. I did a lot of thinking while out today. I decided I wanted to deactivate my FB account. Why do I need so badly for 344 people to know my personal business everyday? I will dearly miss those I don't get to see often, like all my NC friends and their gorgeous babies. But I need this worse. I need time to get my crap together. To get my butt in gear. Those whom I'm close to I will still be in touch with.
In the meantime, I will be working on visual schedules for G to help with transitions and some sensory stuff as well! We also have his domain meeting on Thursday am to determine whether or not he will get into school and if so what extra evals they want to do to determine what services they will provide for him. I hope to potty train BR in the near future if G starts school and we get that schedule down. :) I also hope to have a TON of time on my hands to organize my house to be more efficient for us! I've already started in the kids' rooms! Yay!
I love ya all! I hope to keep in touch via email. Brrr1984@yahoo.com
When I'm home and they're busy I'm sitting, mind racing so I get on Facebook and get sucked into others lives. What does so and so have going on thats worse than what I'm dealing with here? And then I see people asking questions I don't care to answer but I'm not trying to hide. Just steering away front that unwanted advice or judgement that I feel I'm getting when I read between the lines. People that just give off that feeling that they're not there for support, just to be nosy and tell you how they feel you should be handling things or that what you're doing is wrong. I just can't handle it right now in my life. I need to take a breather. Relax and focus on family. I did a lot of thinking while out today. I decided I wanted to deactivate my FB account. Why do I need so badly for 344 people to know my personal business everyday? I will dearly miss those I don't get to see often, like all my NC friends and their gorgeous babies. But I need this worse. I need time to get my crap together. To get my butt in gear. Those whom I'm close to I will still be in touch with.
In the meantime, I will be working on visual schedules for G to help with transitions and some sensory stuff as well! We also have his domain meeting on Thursday am to determine whether or not he will get into school and if so what extra evals they want to do to determine what services they will provide for him. I hope to potty train BR in the near future if G starts school and we get that schedule down. :) I also hope to have a TON of time on my hands to organize my house to be more efficient for us! I've already started in the kids' rooms! Yay!
I love ya all! I hope to keep in touch via email. Brrr1984@yahoo.com
Sunday, December 2, 2012
Autism. A scary word.
It keeps hitting me at odd times. Autism. Sensory Processing Disorder. Things I've suspected for a while. But something about hearing them out loud makes me want to crawl under a rock and hide. Now while his case is very mild compared to some it will still affect his every day. Out every day. And it just keeps hitting me.
I'm planning outfits for pictures today and have a nice button down shirt with collar I'd love for Graham to wear. But Graham won't often wear shirts with collars because they "hurt" or "itch" or "bug me". I'm laying in bed reciting our day tomorrow over and over in my head. Because, Graham has to be prepared, especially if there's some thing out of routine that we will be doing. And even then on several occasions we have had to change plans last minute because he can't handle it. We go to see Santa and have lunch but there's a line 55 thousand million people long and it's loud, hot and crowded and he immediately starts shaking his head and shutting down. So we forgo those plans. Gaggles of kids play while Graham sits on the side lines and shows no interest of joining in. Bella has a stinky diaper and he goes into melt down mode because to him smells are magnified. He comes off as quirky and sometimes out right awkward and even though I LOVE him this way, it won't be easy making friends.
It makes me so sad for him. Life won't come as easily to him. This diagnosis makes me feel like I've somehow failed him. And it's embarrassing to talk about out loud sometimes. I always feel I'm being judged as a mother. Like other people don't see it as much. Or think he's just a bratty kid and we're not adequate parents.
It hits me that we'll have to fight for his rights in school. We'll have to take him to social groups and OT to help him learn to better do things that are hard for him. That we will most likely have more fights with him to get him to start being less dependent on us.
But he has so much going for him, I know he will fare just fine. He's intelligent, funny, charismatic, creative, inventive, talented, polite, and caring. And he has parents who are prepared for the battle! We will see this through and years from now we won't even remember what the fuss was all about.
I'm planning outfits for pictures today and have a nice button down shirt with collar I'd love for Graham to wear. But Graham won't often wear shirts with collars because they "hurt" or "itch" or "bug me". I'm laying in bed reciting our day tomorrow over and over in my head. Because, Graham has to be prepared, especially if there's some thing out of routine that we will be doing. And even then on several occasions we have had to change plans last minute because he can't handle it. We go to see Santa and have lunch but there's a line 55 thousand million people long and it's loud, hot and crowded and he immediately starts shaking his head and shutting down. So we forgo those plans. Gaggles of kids play while Graham sits on the side lines and shows no interest of joining in. Bella has a stinky diaper and he goes into melt down mode because to him smells are magnified. He comes off as quirky and sometimes out right awkward and even though I LOVE him this way, it won't be easy making friends.
It makes me so sad for him. Life won't come as easily to him. This diagnosis makes me feel like I've somehow failed him. And it's embarrassing to talk about out loud sometimes. I always feel I'm being judged as a mother. Like other people don't see it as much. Or think he's just a bratty kid and we're not adequate parents.
It hits me that we'll have to fight for his rights in school. We'll have to take him to social groups and OT to help him learn to better do things that are hard for him. That we will most likely have more fights with him to get him to start being less dependent on us.
But he has so much going for him, I know he will fare just fine. He's intelligent, funny, charismatic, creative, inventive, talented, polite, and caring. And he has parents who are prepared for the battle! We will see this through and years from now we won't even remember what the fuss was all about.
Saturday, November 24, 2012
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Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Nov 13 thankful
Today I am thankful that God designed breast milk! and gave me the strength and endurance to nurse Bella for what will be 17 months next Tuesday! What an amazing feat it is to have never given her formula!
Monday, November 12, 2012
Days 11 & 12
Day 11- I'm so thankful for church and christian music! It encourages me throughout my week and I look forward to attending on Sunday!
Day 12- I am thankful for our home. It keeps us warm, we have room for friends and family and its so much more than we deserve!
Day 12- I am thankful for our home. It keeps us warm, we have room for friends and family and its so much more than we deserve!
Saturday, November 10, 2012
Thankful Day 10
I am thankful for adorable nephews and nieces! I love me some Dax, Lana, Wylie, Sis and Tommy and Owen and Jake! They bring some much like to my life!!!
Friday, November 9, 2012
Thankful day 9
I'm so thankful I get to stay home with my children. My husband works his behind off to make it happen. I love being able to wake up with them each morning, not have to rush around, being the one to drop G off, making cookies together and playing play doh! I adore all the small moments as much as the big ones. And even in the tougher moments I thank God He trusted and called me to be a Mommy to these two beautiful ones!
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Thankful Day 8
Today I'm thankful for four AMAZING sister in laws!!! I couldn't have chosen them better myself. I didn't grow up with "real" sisters (just Kristin and Lauren- who are now my cousins) Joe and Will have a lot to be looking for to live up to these girls!
Tiffany is the best mom to my adorable, sweet, smart and ornery niece and nephews! She keeps my hard headed brother in line. And best of all she's been a great friend and sister to me!
MaryBeth is such a great aunt! Always giving more to the kids than any other person I know. She's even adopted extra! She bakes with a passion! She has also become one of my best friends over the past 5 years!
Alyssa has always been long distance but she doesn't let that stop her from keeping up with the kiddos and us. She keeps Mikey on his toes and is such a great compliment to him!
Anne Marie- well I did kind of "pick" her! Haha! She is the most recent to join the family but perhaps seems like she's been here the longest! What am amazing step mom she is to the kids and again she keeps Jeff in line! She makes him happier than I've ever known him to be! And Duh- she's one of my besties too!!!
Tiffany is the best mom to my adorable, sweet, smart and ornery niece and nephews! She keeps my hard headed brother in line. And best of all she's been a great friend and sister to me!
MaryBeth is such a great aunt! Always giving more to the kids than any other person I know. She's even adopted extra! She bakes with a passion! She has also become one of my best friends over the past 5 years!
Alyssa has always been long distance but she doesn't let that stop her from keeping up with the kiddos and us. She keeps Mikey on his toes and is such a great compliment to him!
Anne Marie- well I did kind of "pick" her! Haha! She is the most recent to join the family but perhaps seems like she's been here the longest! What am amazing step mom she is to the kids and again she keeps Jeff in line! She makes him happier than I've ever known him to be! And Duh- she's one of my besties too!!!
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Day 7 song
While I refuse to get into political debates on Facebook, I will say here, I am a little uncertain of our country's future but I know that in the end God is the highest power and is in charge of each one of our futures. Our story is already written in his book and so therefore I choose to praise Him even when things look grim.
Praise You in this storm- Casting Crowns
http://youtu.be/xGPS8sa-bRQ
Praise You in this storm- Casting Crowns
http://youtu.be/xGPS8sa-bRQ
Thankful Day 7
Cheesy but true- I am thankful for electronics and appliances that make my life easier. I love keeping in touch with friends on Facebook and being able to journal life on blogger. I love that we have a new dishwasher now so hand washing dishes isn't a necessary evil anymore. Lol! I am thankful I am incredibly blessed to have all of these things readily available to me!
Thankful Day 6
I am thankful for medical staff. Nurses and doctors who take time with you to fully understand, and treat your full body and mind. Dr Nord's office will always be near and dear to my heart because I believe they played a huge role in my two beautiful babies making it here healthy. Thank you God for amazing Christians who dedicate they lives to helping others. :)
Monday, November 5, 2012
Songs 3,4,5
Day 3- "Redeemed"- Big Daddy Weave
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=qgxgdwJ7sns
I am so thankful that in through Jesus "I am redeemed".
Day 4-
Something I've given a lot of thought to lately is am I being the best mom I can, the best wife? The best friend?
"This is your life"- Switchfoot
http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=fvwrel&v=5LJPHKfnmRk
Day 5-
Along with the theme of day 4, this so talks about not wanting to just go through the motions.
Matthew West- "The Motions"
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=qaHmiFaX_pk
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=qgxgdwJ7sns
I am so thankful that in through Jesus "I am redeemed".
Day 4-
Something I've given a lot of thought to lately is am I being the best mom I can, the best wife? The best friend?
"This is your life"- Switchfoot
http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=fvwrel&v=5LJPHKfnmRk
Day 5-
Along with the theme of day 4, this so talks about not wanting to just go through the motions.
Matthew West- "The Motions"
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=qaHmiFaX_pk
Days 3,4,5
I'm so thankful for my husband. Seriously, I don't know how I got so lucky! He is my soul mate. This man is incredibly dedicated to his family and to his job. And it doesn't come without huge stressors but he deals so well with it all! He works over time only after he has come home and had dinner and kids go to bed. He always puts himself last when it comes to us. I am so thankful he chose me.
Day 4- I am thankful for our health. As I'm complaining about taking my kids to an ear check up there are parents right here in the area with children dying from cancer. I don't know how I could handle that. So very very thankful.
Day 5- I am thankful for friends. Friends who take me on girls weekends and listen to me complain, who are there for me always. Who don't hold grudges when I'm not being the best friend I can.
Day 4- I am thankful for our health. As I'm complaining about taking my kids to an ear check up there are parents right here in the area with children dying from cancer. I don't know how I could handle that. So very very thankful.
Day 5- I am thankful for friends. Friends who take me on girls weekends and listen to me complain, who are there for me always. Who don't hold grudges when I'm not being the best friend I can.
Friday, November 2, 2012
Song of the Day 2
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=h1Lu5udXEZI
Matthew West-
Forgiveness.
Something I strive give. And receive. One of the best feelings when you can truly forgive as God forgives us.
Matthew West-
Forgiveness.
Something I strive give. And receive. One of the best feelings when you can truly forgive as God forgives us.
Day 2
I am Thankful for Mom. Ma. Mommy.
I give her grief. Cause her stress (her words not mine). I love her lots. She gives all of herself to us. She is crafty. I don't know what I'd do without her.
I give her grief. Cause her stress (her words not mine). I love her lots. She gives all of herself to us. She is crafty. I don't know what I'd do without her.
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