I've been angry, anxious and overbearing since having BR. I've considered therapy or meds for it on some days. Overall things have been smooth sailing but I don't think I'm alone when I say I'd like to scream obscenities at my husband some days.
Overall he tries to be helpful, in a man way. I'll clean up, don't you worry about- walk in to the supposed "clean" room and yea, its just never my idea of clean. But so what, I've dealt with that for the 4 years now that we've been together.
A whole nother level of anger comes when it involves sleep. He offers what seems like genuine help in the middle of the night. I'll get her up and feed her or put her back to sleep. Somehow this always comes back to bite me in the ass in the form of asshole-ish-ness in the morning. Like its somehow 10 times worse when he is up at night than if I were to be. So I've decided I will quit allowing it. I'm sure he will still put up a (half ass) fight. But its always only seconds from sitting downstairs with her that I hear his snoring upstairs. So much for really being concerned. I however am awake 90 percent of the time he is up with her, so why not just get up myself and avoid A-hole-ish-ness in the morning?
I've finally come out and told him a few times, after stewing in the reclined with her in my arms all night, that is also a full time job for me to feed her, not to mention the other full time job of cleaning house and taking care of the other kid. I feel like I should be paid (or at least thanked!!) most days, its that hard and exhausting at moments to keep up with it all.
Now I'm off to cook, ,clean and feed the baby with my body. Have a nice day all!
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